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Happy Friday friends ! These past couple of months, I have been doing a lot of inner work . Meeting with my pastor and digging deep into the ugly parts of myself . 2 months to this day, I emailed the team and asked for help. I can’t even begin to tell you how terrified and fearful I was . Fear took over me most of my life , so asking for some sort of guidance really scared me . I felt so alone on this journey for so many reasons, but the main one was always being overlooked and rejected my whole life . When I begin to speak or even share my heart or who I am, no one ever takes me seriously . All my life I have been there for people who were never truly there for me . I always felt dismissed in relationships , work , family , friends etc . So when you’re unpacking all those inner wounds and fears and insecurities, it’s not something that you just patch up and do . It’s going back to those treacherous moments when you felt your weakest . Reliving those feelings that you felt , how differently you reacted , what could you have done differently , overplaying everything over and over again . Realizing what triggers you and how to overcome it . So here I go, unpacking the suitcase and packing it with love , peace and faithfulness to God's will for my life .